Its okay. Its okay.

Sometimes people desapoint me. But most of the time I don't really care. You know, I always trust me more than everybody else, so if I get hurt by someone, its really my fault.

I had this great love once, not to long ago. And most of my friends know me from my cold heart, my ideas of relationships, the way I act, and blablabla. So when I had this thing, for this person, it was kinda scary for everyone. They didnt know waht to say, how to take care of me.
But I had so much fun.

I remember I was sitting in the livingroom, with my cousin in sitting in my lap, and we were all talking about our countries. And I looked to the boy in the floor. He was so cute, and I told my cousin I liked him, and she was "what? you just saw him!!!". So what? I like to follow my intuition, and I was right. Like 50% of the time.

So two days after this connection, at least for me, I had this idea of how great the kiss would be, how great we could be together, but I dont really think he had the same conection with me, and whatever, I just knew i had to kiss that boy. But oh boy, he was a hard catch.

Long story, make it short, I did kiss the boy, and I had 4 days of incredible happiness and joy with him. I don't know. I might be crazy. He did hurt me, he did desapointed me, but I know it was entirely my own and big fault. I fell in love deeply and greatfully with him. And I might had regreted for a while after that.

Today we are friends, and every time we talk I get so happy. He is crazy, he is funny, he makes me mad, he listen to me, i listen to him. And even know, sometimes we get like 2 months without having one talk, and sometimes when he lies to me, and most of the time I scare the shit out of him with my crazy things. We have a great time. We are two completely diferent souls, two personalities, we understand each other.

So, what I'm trying to say is, I know people will hurt me. I know is up to me what I feel, and how I can give it back to someone what they deserve, but I am getting so tired.